I haven't posted in a long time, but I have something that really is disappointing. I myself am a Christian, but I refuse to hold prejudice against people. We all have hearts, and minds. We all reach out to one another, sometimes for no good reason except the feeling of having someone. We all except our death, we all know we will die in some shape or form. We all are capable of holding emotions and feelings. Perhaps the greatest emotional bond is that of a mother to a child. My best friend, Vivian, was told she needs to make arrangements to leave her home. This is because her parents are completely impossible, she told them she was gay, and yes she has made some bad decisions as well but completely minor. I don't understand how someone can be so judgmental that they would kick their own child out. I have talked to Vivian, and we both made a plan where we are going to take the same classes next semester and make excellent grades, stay out of trouble, ect. Now I don't know if this will be possible for her. We are both college freshmen, and her parents basically just set her up to fail at life now. Leaving her no college fund, housing, car, or anything for that matter. She is looking for a job, but with no car that is completely hard. I am trying to help her figure out financial aid if there is anything possible. We really are working hard to get money, but the semester starts very soon obviously, and she has to somehow pay. Tuition is $3,480. Dorm is $1700. Because the school is annoying if you live on campus you MUST purchase a meal plan which very minimum price is $1,143. Along with that is the cost of books which are about $700. I don't know if you know any organizations that are willing to help. Anyway of getting donations, scholarships, ect. I am just trying to get her to stay in college. Currently she can't afford it at all. The current cost is about $6,323, the college has an option to split it up into 4 payments. Even with that she will have to pay $1,580.75 in January. If you guys have any ideas please comment and help.
Wow...It's been a long while. Almost a year! I don't know why I gave this up...I really like to randomly rant and write. Even if no one ever reads it. Spring Break is two weeks away thank goodness! And it's Happy Friday! Life is good, and it's all thanks to God. I mean honestly I have never been this happy in my life before. I have decided when people are rude to me I will answer them with kindness. It's way more affective. I really feel like I have grown over the past year. In may I will be graduating. The summer will consist of Life guarding, and in August I am off to college. Though, I will be living at home to save money. Goodness knows what I am going to major in. I just know I want to be in the dance program next year more than anything...Which means when I am not working I will be dancing my heart out this summer. Fine by me, though, because I love it. Hopefully I will take classes this summer. It's got me really nervous. The audition will consist of learning a 16-18 count and then performing it in a group of 6...with everyone watching. I wish I was little again, and being on stage excited me. Instead it makes me want do die, but at the same time I still love it. I confuse myself, and I guess that's all I really have to say. Life rocks right now, and so does Jesus. I am so blessed. Happy Friday! (=
So...I am doing a project for anatomy class on memory diseases/disorders. I am doing my on Anomia! It's a really sad thing. Wouldn't is be scary to have some sort of memory disorder?!?! Anomia in particular is a type of disorder where you can't name certain objects or familiar people. I would imagin it's like having that word you want to use right at the tip of your tounge, yet you can't think of that darn sucker! I don't meant to say that as like the disorder is some joke, because it's not by any means, but I guess us humans try to make something seem happy or joke so that we feel at ease about it. Otherwise known as a coping mechanism (What a fun word!). Anywho, besides my crazy hyperness I am stressssssed about my Chemistry Exam this week it decides a C or B for this 9 weeks. If I get a C!!!!!!!!!!, that will be my second C in my whole ENTIRE life. Which is awful since the other was in Junior English, I swear the teacher has horns somewhere. So...Yeah that's my rant. I am going on spring break Sunday!!!! What are you guys planning on doing? If not spring break any vacation plans sometime this year?
Crimson blood upon the floor Blade of choice in the drawer Another day full of pain Trying to hit the right vein So this will all go away And maybe I won't cry today Cause I hate myself Life forced upon a shelf This is eating me inside out My heart struck in a drought Drained of all the love Wishing to sour above Leave this hateful place Let this body go to waste Then swiftly hit the floor As they shut the coffin door My body in the ground Yet my soul is unbound Away from all the hate Now in a blissful state I leave this place of lies Seeing the world from new eyes Taking a different task No longer hiding behind a mask (c) Racheldancingpanda30
